It has been a while since I last put a bib number on, and after last year’s frustration I thought it would be nice to head back to Cannes and kickstart 2019. To cut things short: I’ve never learnt so much in four and a half hours. Literally…Never !
1. Race with your balls AND YOUR BRAIN
1st out of the water and 2min lead after only 20km in the saddle, sounds good hey…I live to race, and given the chance to hurt people I’ve grown up watching on TV I’m obviously going to do it. I thrive on making my competitors suffer.
So yes I set out too hard, and yes I suffered the consequences of it, but did I enjoy it ? Hell yes.
I guess if I had raced more conservatively I could have maybe got a podium, but let’s be honest here.. that’s not really what I want.
I want to win ! And one day this ballsy way of racing will take me all the way to the line, I’m sure of it. In fact I know it will. I simply have to become a better athlete, just that.
2. Let your team be your strength
I’m slowly but surely building a team of people around me to help me pursue my dream. It’s only this weekend that I realised how important these people were.. When I blew 90km into the bike and still had over an hour of racing to do the voices in my head were telling me to pull over and have a beer rather then burying my self into the ground all the way to the finish. But somehow I had this picture of the people who support me everyday and who pick me up when things get sketchy. I want to inspire Jake, I want to thank my parents for everything they have invested into me, I want to make my best friend proud, the list could go on. So many people I simply could not let down, and it’s taken me 16 years in the sport to realise it. I want to give everything my body and mind has to offer on race day, nothing else.
3. Confidence, quiet confidence
This race gave me a good lesson in what professional long distance triathlon racing really is and I sure got my ass kicked on the day. But it also made me realise that I can be the best in the sport. The 3 guys in front are simply better athletes, why ? Because they’ve worked longer and harder than me. These guys were already winning races when I wasn’t even born.. It’s just a question of time. I’m 20 years old, and I can do 75% of the race in first place, if I can go 5% longer every year it shouldn’t take me long to dominate the race from start to finish. It may sound cocky and unlike my normal speech but I know truly believe I can be the best. And I’m not going to be giving up anytime soon in trying to be so.
4. Learning to be realistic but still positive
I’m not generally one to praise my own results, in fact I’m rarely satisfied with what I do and always seek more. I would normally beat myself up about coming 4th , but this result has simply made me hungrier than ever. I could make loads of excuses up and use « ifs » to explain why I didn’t podium, but deep down I know what mistakes I’ve made, and also know what progress I’ve made. My last month leading into this race was far from perfect, I completed less then 10 days of my planned sessions in the month prior yet still came 4th behind 3 world class athletes. I know I can do a lot better, and this year I’m determined to do so.